I'm starting to think I'm bipolar. I get happy and then sad, and then happy, and then sad agiain all in the same freeking hour. Can you be bipolar while knowing you're that way? And can you be bipolar without slitting your wrists? Wwhat are the signs of Bipolar disease? Why do i feel like i'm sinking into that deep, deep hole of depression again? Why does everytime I think I've reached the top just turn into me falling back in and having to climb back up again? Sometime, I'm going to get tired of climbing back up again. When will it happen, will i ever get out of this rut forever? If not, will i ever really be happy? My dad doesn't understand me either, and its so frustraiting. And i've tried taling to him about it, he's just like "do you want counsiling?" like thats the only way to fix me. And maybe I do need counsiling, but how can I trust a counsilor when i've had so many bad ones. Will he take me back to that terrible girl JC? If i start counsiling again what will people think of me? will they not want to be friends with someone who's crazy? I don't want to go on medication, i don't want to have to depend on something to make me become something i should already be without meds. I just feel like a hug. and no one's here to hug me.